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Miss Mary Postgate, Lady McCausland wrote that she was "thoroughly
conscientious, tidy, companionable, and ladylike. I am very sorry to
part with her, and shall always be interested in her welfare." Miss
Fowler engaged her on this recommendation, and to her surprise, for she
had had experience of companions, found that it was true. Miss Fowler
was nearer sixty than fifty at the time, but though she needed care she
did not exhaust her attendant's vitality. On the contrary, she gave out,
stimulatingly and with reminiscences. Her father had been a minor Court
official in the days when the Great Exhibition of 1851 had just set its
seal on Civilisation made perfect. Some of Miss Fowler's tales, none the
less, were not always for the young. Mary was not young, and though her
speech was as colourless as her eyes or her hair, she was never shocked.
She listened unflinchingly to every one; said at the end, "How
interesting!" or "How shocking!" as the case might be,
and never again referred to it, for she prided herself on a trained
mind, which "did not dwell on these things." She was, too, a
treasure at domestic accounts, for which the village tradesmen, with
their weekly books, loved her not. Otherwise she had no enemies;
provoked no jealousy even among the plainest; neither gossip nor slander
had ever been traced to her; she supplied the odd place at the Rector's
or the Doctor's table at half an hour's notice; she was a sort of public
aunt to very many small children of the village street, whose parents,
while accepting everything would have been swift to resent what they
called "patronage"; she served on the Village Nursing
Committee as Miss Fowler's nominee when Miss Fowler was crippled by
rheumatoid arthritis, and came out of six months" fort-nightly
meetings equally respected by all the cliques.
And when Fate threw Miss Fowler's nephew, an unlovely orphan of
eleven, on Miss Fowler's hands, Mary Postgate stood to her share of the
business of education as practiced in private and public schools. She
checked printed clothes-lists, and unitemised bills of extras; wrote to
Head and House masters, matrons, nurses, and doctors, and grieved or
rejoiced over half-term reports. Young Wyndham Fowler repaid her in his
holidays by calling her "Gatepost," "Posty," or
"Packthread," by thumping her between her narrow shoulders or
by chasing her bleating, round the garden, her large mouth open, her
large nose high in air at a stiff-necked shamble very like a camel's.
Later on he filled the house with clamour, argument, and harangues as to
his personal needs, likes and dislikes, and the limitations of "you
women," reducing Mary to tears of physical fatigue, or, when he
chose to be humorous, of helpless laughter. At crises, which multiplied
as he grew older, she was his ambassadress and his interpretress to Miss
Fowler, who had no large sympathy with the young; a vote in his interest
at the councils on his future; his sewing-woman, strictly accountable
for mislaid boots and garments; always his butt and his slave.
And when he decided to become a solicitor, and had entered an office
in London; when his greeting had changed form "Hullo, Postey, you
old beast," to "Mornin, Packthread" there came a war
which, unlike all wars that Mary could remember, did not stay decently
outside England and in the newspapers, but intruded on the lives of
people whom she knew. As she said to Miss Fowler, it was "most
vexatious." It took the Rector's son who was going into business
with his elder brother; it took the Colonel's nephew on the eve of
fruit-farming in Canada; it took Mrs. Grant's son who, his mother said,
was devoted to the ministry; and, very early indeed, it took Wynn
Fowler, who announced on a postcard that he had joined the Flying Corps
and wanted a cardigan waistcoat.
"He must go, and he must have the waistcoat," said Miss
Fowler. So Mary got the proper-sized needles and wool, while Miss Fowler
told the men of her establishment -- two gardeners and an old man, sixty
-- that those who could join the Army had better do so. The gardeners
left. Cheape, the odd man, stayed on, and was promoted to the gardener's
cottage. The cook, scorning to be limited in luxuries, also left, after
a spirited scene with Miss Fowler, and took the house-maid with her.
Miss Fowler gazetted Nellie, Cheape's seventeen-year-old daughter, to
the vacant post; Mrs. Cheape to the rank of cook with occasional
cleaning bouts; and the reduced establishment moved forward smoothly.
Wynn demanded an increase in his allowance. Miss Fowler, who always
looked facts in the face, said, "He must have it. The chances are
he won't live long to draw it, and if three hundred makes him
happy----"
Wynn was grateful, and came over, in his tight-buttoned uniform, to
say so. His training centre was not thirty miles away, and his talk was
so technical that it had to be explained by charts of the various types
of machines. He gave Mary such a chart.
"And you'd better study it, Postey," he said. "You'll
be seeing a lot of "em soon." So Mary studied the chart, but
when Wynn next arrived to swell and exalt himself before his womenfolk,
she failed badly in cross-examination, and he rated her as in the old
days.
"You look more or less like a human being," he said in his
new Service voice. "You must have had a brain at some time in your
past. What have you done with it? Where'd you keep it? A sheep would
know more than you do, Postey. You're lamentable. You are less use than
an empty tin can, you dowey old cassowary."
"I suppose that's how your superior officer talks to you?"
said Miss Fowler from her chair.
"But Postey doesn't mind," Wynn replied. "Do you,
Packthread?"
"Why? Was Wynn saying anything? I shall get this right next time
you come," she muttered, and knitted her pale brows again over the
diagrams of Taubes, Farmans, and Zeppelins.
In a few weeks the mere land and sea battles which she read to Miss
Fowler after breakfast passed her like idle breath. Her heart and her
interest were high in the air with Wynn, who had finished
"rolling" (whatever that might be) and gone on from a
"taxi" to a machine more or less his own. One morning it
circled over their very chimneys, alighted on Vegg's Heath, almost
outside the garden gate, and Wynn came in, blue with cold, shouting for
food. He and she drew Miss Fowler's bath-chair, as they had often done,
along the Heath foot-path to look at the biplane. Mary observed that
"it smelt very badly."
"Postey, I believe you think with your nose," said Wynn.
"I know you don't with your mind. Now, what type's that?"
"Ill go and get the chart," said Mary.
"You're hopeless! You haven't the mental capacity of a white
mouse," he cried, and explained the dials and the sockets for
bomb-dropping till it was time to mount and ride the wet clouds once
more.
"Ah!" said Mary, as the stinking thing flared upward.
"Wait till our Flying Corps gets to work! Wynn says it's much safer
than in the trenches."
"I wonder," said Miss Fowler. "Tell Cheape to come and
tow me home again."
"It's all downhill. I can do it," said Mary, "if you
put the brake on." She laid her lean self against the pushing-bar
and home they trundled.
"Now, be careful you aren't heated and catch a chill," said
overdressed Miss Fowler.
"Nothing makes me perspire," said Mary. As she bumped the
chair under the porch she straightened her long back. The exertion had
given her a colour, and the wind had loosened a wisp of hair across her
forehead. Miss Fowler glanced at her.
"What do you ever think of, Mary?" she demanded suddenly.
"Oh, Wynn says he wants another three pairs of stockings -- as
thick as we can make them."
"Yes. But I mean the things that women think about Here you are,
more than forty----"
"Forty-four," said truthful Mary.
"Well?"
"Well?" Mary offered Miss Fowler her shoulder as usual.
"And you've been with me ten years now."
"Let's see," said Mary. "Wynn was eleven when he came.
He's twenty now, and I came two years before that. It must be
eleven."
"Eleven! And you've never told me anything that matters in all
that while. Looking back, it seems to me that I've done all the
talking."
"I'm afraid I'm not much of a conversationalist. As Wynn says, I
haven't the mind. Let me take your hat."
Miss Fowler, moving stiffly from the hip, stamped her rubber-tipped
stick on the tiled hall floor. "Mary, aren't you anything except a
companion? Would you ever have been anything except a companion?"
Mary hung up the garden hat on its proper peg. "No," she
said after consideration. "I don't imagine I ever should. But I've
no imagination, I'm afraid."
She fetched Miss Fowler her eleven-o'clock glass of Contrexeville.
That was the wet December when it rained six inches to the month, and
the women went abroad as little as might be. Wynn's flying chariot
visited them several times, and for two mornings (he had warned her by
postcard) Mary heard the thresh of his propellers at dawn. The second
time she ran to the window, and stared at the whitening sky. A little
blur passed overhead. She lifted her lean arms towards it.
That evening at six o'clock there came an announcement in an official
envelope that Second Lieutenant W. Fowler had been killed during a trial
flight. Death was instantaneous. She read it and carried it to Miss
Fowler.
"I never expected anything else," said Miss Fowler;
"but I'm sorry it happened before he had done anything."
The room was whirling round Mary Postgate, but she found herself
quite steady in the midst of it.
"Yes," she said. "It's a great pity he didn't die in
action after he had killed somebody."
"He was killed instantly. That's one comfort," Miss Fowler
went on.
"But Wynn says the shock of a fall kills a man at once -
whatever happens to the tanks," quoted Mary.
The room was coming to rest now. She heard Miss Fowler say
impatiently, "But why can't we cry, Mary?" and herself
replying, "There's nothing to cry for. He has done his duty as much
as Mrs. Grant's son did."
"And when he died, she came and cried all the morning,"
said Miss Fowler. "This only makes me feel tired -- terribly tired.
Will you help me to bed, please, Mary? -- And I think I'd like the
hot-water bottle."
So Mary helped her and sat beside, talking of Wynn in his riotous
youth.
"I believe," said Miss Fowler suddenly, "that old
people and young people slip from under a stroke like this. The
middle-aged feel it most."
"I expect that's true," said Mary, rising. "I'm going
to put away the things in his room now. Shall we wear mourning?"
"Certainly not," said Miss Fowler. "Except, of course,
at the funeral. I can't go. You will. I want you to arrange about his
being buried here. What a blessing it didn't happen at Salisbury!"
Every one, from the Authorities of the Flying Corps to the Rector,
was most kind and sympathetic. Mary found herself for the moment in a
world where bodies were in the habit of being despatched by all sorts of
conveyances to all sorts of places. And at the funeral two young men in
buttoned-up uniforms stood beside the grave and spoke to her afterwards.
"You're Miss Postgate, aren't you?" said one, "Fowler
told me about you. He was a good chap -- a first-class fellow -- a great
loss."
"Great loss!" growled his companion. "We're all
awfully sorry."
"How high did he fall from?" Mary whispered.
"Pretty nearly four thousand feet, I should think, didn't he?
You were up that day, Monkey?"
"All of that," the other child replied. "My bar made
three thousand, and I wasn't as high as him by a lot."
"Then that's all right," said Mary. "Thank you very
much."
They moved away as Mrs. Grant flung herself weeping on Mary's flat
chest, under the lych-gate, and cried, "I know how it feels! I know
how it feels!"
"But both his parents are dead," Mary returned, as she
fended her off. "Perhaps they've all met by now," she added
vaguely as she escaped towards the coach.
"I've thought of that too," wailed Mrs. Grant; "but
then he'll be practically a stranger to them. Quite embarrassing!"
Mary faithfully reported every detail of the ceremony to Miss Fowler,
who, when she described Mrs. Grant's outburst, laughed aloud.
"Oh, how Wynn would have enjoyed it! He was always utterly
unreliable at funerals. D'you remember--" And they talked of him
again, each piecing out the other's gaps. "And now," said Miss
Fowler, "we'll pull up the blinds and we'll have a general tidy.
That always does us good. Have you seen to Wynn's things?"
"Everything -- since he first came," said Mary, "He
was never destructive -- even with his toys."
They faced that neat room.
"It can't be natural not to cry," Mary said at last.
"I'm so afraid you'll have a reaction."
"As I told you, we old people slip from under the stroke. It's
you I'm afraid for. Have you cried yet?"
"I can't. It only makes me angry with the Germans."
"That's sheer waste of vitality," said Miss Fowler.
"We must live till the war's finished." She opened a full
wardrobe. "Now, I've been thinking things over. This is my plan.
All his civilian clothes can be given away -- Belgian refugees, and so
on."
Mary nodded. "Boots, collars, and gloves?"
"They came back yesterday with his Flying Corps clothes" --
Mary pointed to a roll on the little iron bed.
"Ah, but keep his Service things. Some one may be glad of them
later. Do you remember his sizes?"
"Five feet eight and a half; thirty-six inches round the chest.
But he told me he's just put on an inch and a half. Ill mark it on a
label and tie it on his sleeping-bag."
'so that disposes of that," said Miss Fowler, tapping the palm
of one hand with the ringed third finger of the other. "What a
waste it all is! We'll get his old school trunk to-morrow and pack his
civilian clothes."
"And the rest?" said Mary. "His books and pictures and
the games and the toys -- and -- and the rest?"
"My plan is to burn every single thing," said Miss Fowler.
"Then we shall know where they are and no one can handle them
afterwards. What do you think?"
"I think that would be much the best," said Mary. "But
there's such a lot of them."
"We'll burn them in the destructor," said Miss Fowler.
This was an open-air furnace for the consumption of refuse; a little
circular four-foot tower of pierced brick over an iron grating. Miss
Fowler had noticed the design in a gardening journal years ago, and had
had it built at the bottom of the garden. It suited her tidy soul, for
it saved unsightly rubbish-heaps and the ashes lightened the stiff clay
soil.
Mary considered for a moment, saw her way clear, and nodded again.
They spent the evening putting away well-remembered civilian suits,
underclothes that Mary had marked, and the regiments of very gaudy socks
and ties. A second trunk was needed, and, after that, a little packing
case, and it was late next day when Cheape and the local carrier lifted
them to the cart. The Rector luckily knew of a friend's son, about five
feet eight and a half inches high, to whom a complete Flying Corps
outfit would be most acceptable, and sent his gardener's son down with a
barrow to take delivery of it. The cap was hung up in Miss Fowler's
bedroom, the belt in Miss Postgate's; for, as Miss Fowler said, they had
no desire to make tea-party talk of them.
"That disposes of that," said Miss Fowler. "Ill leave
the rest to you, Mary. I can't run up and down in the garden. You'd
better take the big clothes-basket and get Nellie to help you."
"I shall take the wheel-barrow and do it myself," said
Mary, and for once in her life closed her mouth.
Miss Fowler, in moments of irritation, had called Mary deadly
methodical. She put on her oldest water-proof and gardening-hat and her
ever-slipping goloshes, for the weather was on the edge of more rain.
She gathered firelighters from the kitchen, a half-scuttle of coals, and
a faggot of brushwood. These she wheeled in the barrow down the mossed
paths to the dank little laurel shrubbery where the destructor stood
under the drip of three oaks. She climbed the wire fence into the
Rector's glebe just behind, and from his tenant's rick pilled two large
armfuls of good hay, which she spread neatly on the fire-bars. Next,
journey by journey, passing Miss Fowler's white face at the morning-room
window each time, she brought down in the towel-covered clothes-basket,
on the wheel-barrow, thumbed and used Hentys, Marrayats, Levers,
Stevensons, Baroness Orczys, Garvices, schoolbooks, and atlases,
unrelated piles of the Motor Cyclist, the Light Car, and catalogues of
Olympia Exhibitions; the remnants of a fleet of sailing-ships from nine-penney
cutters to a three-guinea yacht; a prep-school dressing-gown; bats from
three-and-sixpence to twenty-four shillings; cricket and tennis balls;
disintegrated steam and clockwork locomotives with their twisted rails;
a grey and red tin model of a submarine; a dumb gramophone and cracked
records; golf-clubs that had to be broken across the knee, like his
walking-sticks, and an assegai; photographs of private and public school
cricket and football elevens, and his O.T.C. on the line of march;
kodaks, and film-rolls; some pewters, and one real silver cup, for
boxing competitions and Junior Hurdles; sheaves of school photographs;
Miss Fowler's photograph; her own which he had borne off in fun and
(good care she take not to ask!) had never returned; a playbox with a
secret drawer; a load of flannels, belts, and jerseys, and a pair of
spiked shoes unearthed in the attic; a packet of all the letters that
Miss Fowler and she had ever written to him, kept for some absurd reason
through all these years; a five-day attempt at a diary; framed pictures
of racing motors in full Brooklands career, and load upon load of
undistinguishable wreckage of tool-boxes, rabbit-hutches, electric
batteries, tin soldiers, fret-saw outfits, and jig-saw puzzles.
Miss Fowler at the window watched her come and go, and said to
herself, "Mary's an old woman. I never realised it before."
After lunch she recommended her to rest.
"I'm not in the least tired," said Mary. "I've got it
all arranged. I'm going to the village at two o'clock for some paraffin.
Nellie hasn't enough, and the walk will do me good."
She made one last quest round the house before she started, and found
that she had overlooked nothing. It began to mist as soon as she had
skirted Vegg's Heath, where Wynn used to descend---it seemed to her that
she could almost hear the beat of his propellers overhead, but there was
nothing to see. She hoisted her umbrella and lunged into the blind wet
till she had reached the shelter of the empty village. As she came out
of Mr. Kidd's shop with a bottle full of paraffin in her string
shopping-bag, she met Nurse Eden, the village nurse, and fell into talk
with her, as usual, about the village children. They were parting
opposite the "Royal Oak" when a gun, they fancied, was fired
immediately behind the house. It was followed by a child's shriek dying
into a wail.
"Accident!" said Nurse Eden promptly, and dashed through
the empty bar, followed by Mary. They found Mrs. Gerritt, the publican's
wife, who cold only gasp and point to the yard, where a little
cart-lodge was sliding sideways amid a clatter of tiles. Nurse Eden
snatched up a sheet drying before the fire, ran out, lifted something
from the ground, and flung the sheet round it. The she turned scarlet
and half her uniform too, as she bore the load into the kitchen. It was
little Edna Gerritt, aged nine, whom Mary had known since her
perambulator days.
"Am I hurted bad?" Edna asked, and died between Nurse
Eden's dripping hands. The sheet fell aside and for an instant, before
she could shut her eyes, Mary saw the ripped and shredded body.
"It's a wonder she spoke at all," said Nurse Eden.
"What in God's name was it?"
"A bomb," said Mary.
"One o" the Zeppelins?"
"No. An aeroplane. I thought I heard it on the Heath but I
fancied it was one of ours. It must have shut off its engines as it came
down. That's why we didn't notice it."
"The filthy pigs!" said Nurse Eden, all white and shaken.
'see the pickle I'm in! Go and tell Dr. Hennis, Miss Postgate."
Nurse looked at the mother, who had dropped face down on the floor.
`She's only in a fit. Turn her over."
Mary heaved Mrs. Gerritt right side up, and hurried off for the
doctor. When she told her tale, he asked her to sit down in the surgery
till he got her something.
"But I don't need it, I assure you," said she. "I
don't think it would be wise to tell Miss Fowler about it, do you? Her
heart is so irritable in this weather."
Dr. Hennis looked at her admiringly as he packed up his bag.
"No. Don't tell anybody till we're sure," he said, and
hastened to the "Royal Oak," while Mary went on with the
paraffin. The village behind her was as quiet as usual, for the news had
not yet spread. She frowned a little to herself, the large nostrils
expanded uglily from time to time as she muttered a phrase which Wynn
who had never restrained himself before his women-folk, had applied to
the enemy. "Bloody pagans! They are bloody pagans. But, 'she
continued, falling back on the teaching that had made her what she was,
"one mustn't let one's mind dwell on these things."
Before she reached the house Dr. Hennis, who was also a special
constable, overtook her in his car.
"Oh, Miss Postgate," he said, "I wanted to tell you
that that accident at the "Royal Oak" was due to Gerritt's
stable tumbling down. It's been dangerous for a long time. It ought to
have been condemned."
"I thought I heard an explosion too," said Mary.
"You might have been misled by the beams snapping. I've been
looking at "em. They were dry-rotted through and through. Of
course, as they broke, they would make a noise just like a gun."
"Yes?" said Mary politely.
"Poor little Edna was playing underneath it," he went on,
still holding her with his eyes, "and that and the tiles cut her to
pieces, you see?"
"I saw it," said Mary, shaking her head. "I heard it
too."
"Well, we cannot be sure." Dr. Hennis changed his tone
completely. "I know both you and Nurse Eden (I've been speaking to
her) are perfectly trustworthy, and I can rely on you not to say
anything -- yet at least. It is no good to stir up people
unless---"
"Oh, I never do -- anyhow," said Mary, and Dr. Hennis went
on to the country town.
After all, she told herself, it might, just possibly, have been the
collapse of the old stable that had done all those things to poor little
Edna. She was sorry she had even hinted at other things, but Nurse Eden
was discretion itself. By the time she reached home the affair seemed
increasingly remote by its very monstrosity. As she came in, Miss Fowler
told her that a couple of aeroplanes had passed half an hour ago.
"I though I heard them," she replied, "I'm going down
to the garden now. I've got the paraffin."
"Yes, but -- what have you got on your boots? They're soaking
wet. Change them at once."
Not only did Mary obey, but she wrapped the boots in a newspaper, and
put them into the string bag with the bottles. So, armed with the
longest kitchen poker, she left.
"It's raining again," was Miss Fowler's last word,
"but--I know you won't be happy till that's disposed of."
"It won't take long. I've got everything down there, and I've
put the lid on the destructor to keep the wet out."
The shrubbery was filling with twilight by the same time she had
completed her arrangements and sprinkled the sacrificial oil. As she lit
the match that would burn her heart to ashes, she heard a groan or a
grunt behind the dense Portugal laurels.
"Cheape?" she called impatiently, but Cheape, with his
ancient lumbago, in his comfortable cottage would be the last man to
profane the sanctuary. "Sheep," she concluded, and threw in
the fuse. The pure went up in a roar, and the immediate flame hastened
the night around her."
"How Wynn would have loved this!" she thought, stepping
back from the blaze.
By its light she saw, half hidden behind a laurel not five paces
away, a bare-headed man sitting very stiffly at the foot of one of the
oaks. A broken branch lay across his lap--one booted leg protruding from
beneath it. His head moved ceaselessly from side to side, but his body
was as still as the tree's trunk. He was dressed--she moved sideways to
look more closely--in a uniform something like Lynn's with a flap
buttoned across the chest. For an instant she had some idea that it
might be one of the young flying men she had met at the funeral. But
their heads were dark and glassy. This man's was as pale as a baby's,
and so closely cropped that she could see the disgusting pink skin
beneath. His lips moved.
"What do you say?" Mary moved towards him and stooped.
"Laty! Laty! Laty!" he muttered, while his hands picked at
the dead wet leaves. There was no doubt as to his nationality. It made
her so angry that she strode back to the destructor, though it was still
too hot to use the poker there. Wynn's books seemed to be catching well.
She looked up at the oak behind the man; several of the light upper and
two or three rotten lower branches had broken and scattered their
rubbish on the shrubbery path. On the lowest fork a helmet with
dependent strings, showed like a bird's-nest in the light of a
long-tongued flame. Evidently this person had fallen through the trees.
Wynn had told her that it was quite possible for people to fall out of
aeroplanes. Wynn told her, too, that trees were useful things to break
an aviators fall, but in this case the aviator must have been broken or
he would moved from his queer position. He seemed helpless except for
his belt--and Mary loathed pistols. Months ago, after reading certain
Belgian reports together, she and Miss Fowler had had dealings with
one--a huge revolver with flat-nosed bullets, which latter, Wynn said,
were forbidden by the rules of war to be used against civilised enemies.
"They're good enough for us," Miss Fowler had replied. 'show
Mary how it works." And Wynn, laughing at the mere possibility of
any such need, had led the craven winking Mary into the Rector's disused
quarry, and had shown her how to fire the terrible machine. It lay now
in the top-left-hand drawer of her toilet-table--a memento not included
in the burning. Wynn would be pleased to see how she was not afraid.
She slipped up to the house to get it. When she came through the
rain, the eyes in the head were alive with expectation. The mouth even
tried to smile. But at sight of the revolver its corners went down just
like Edna Gerritt's. A tear trickled from one eye, and the head rolled
from shoulder to shoulder as through trying to point out something.
"Cassee. Tout cassee [Broken. All broken]," it whimpered.
"What do you say?" said Mary disgustedly, keeping well to
one side, though only the head moved.
"Cassee," it repeated. "Che me rends. Le medicin!
Toctor! [I am hurt. The doctor (French) Doctor!]"
"Nein!" said she, bringing all her small German to bear
with the big pistol. "Ich haben der todt Kinder gesehn [I have see
the dead child]."
The head was still. Mary's hand dropped. She had been careful to keep
her finger off the trigger for fear of accidents. After a few
moments" waiting, she returned to the destructor, where the flames
were falling, and churned up Wynn's charring books with the poker. Again
the head groaned for the doctor.
"Stop that!" said Mary, and stamped her foot. "Stop
that, you bloody pagan!"
The words came quite smoothly and naturally. They were Wynn's own
words, and Wynn was a gentleman who for no consideration on earth would
have torn little Edna into those vividly coloured strips and strings.
But this thing hunched under the oak-tree had done that thing. It was no
question of reading horrors out of newspapers to Miss Fowler. Mary had
seen it with her own eyes on the "Royal Oak" kitchen table.
She must not allow her mind to dwell upon it. Now Wynn was dead, and
every thing connected with him was lumping and rustling and tinkling
under her busy poker into red black dust and grey leaves of ash. The
thing beneath the oak would die too. Mary had seen death more than once.
She came of a family that had a knack of dying under, as she told Miss
Fowler, "most distressing circumstances." She would stay where
she was till she was entirely satisfied that It was dead -- dead as dear
papa in the late "eighties; aunt Mary in "eighty-nine; mamma
in "ninety-one; cousin Dick in "ninety-five; Lady McCausland's
housemaid in "ninety-nine; Lady McCausland's sister in nineteen
hundred and one; Wynn burried five days ago; and Edna Gerritt still
waiting for decent earth to hide her. As she thought---her underlip
caught up by one faded canine, brows knit and nostrils wide---she
wielded the poker with lunges that jarred the grating at the bottom, and
careful scrapes round the brick-work above. She looked at her
wrist-watch. It was getting on to half-past four, and the rain was
coming down in earnest. Tea would be at five. If It did not die before
that time, she would be soaked and would have to change. Meantime, and
this occupied her, Wynn's things were burning well in spite of the
hissing wet though now and again a book-back with a quite
distinguishable title would be heaved up out of the mass. The exercise
of stoking had given her a glow which seemed to reach to the marrow of
her bones. She hummed -- Mary never had a voice---to herself. She had
never believed in all those advanced views---though Miss Fowler herself
leaned a little that way---of woman's work in the world; but now she saw
there was much to be said for them. This, for instance, was her
work---work which no man, least of all Dr. Hennis, would ever have done.
A man, at such a crisis, would be what Wynn called a 'sportsman";
would leave everything to fetch help, and would certainly bring It into
the house. Now a woman's business was to make a happy home for---for a
husband and children. Failing these---it was not a thing one should
allow one's mind to dwell upon---but----
"Stop it!" Mary cried once more across the shadows.
"Nein, I tell you! Ich haben der todt Kinder gesehn."
But it was a fact. A woman who had missed these things could still be
useful--more useful than a man in certain respects. She thumped like a
paviour through the settling ashes at the secret thrill of it. The rain
was damping the fire, but she could feel---it was too dark to see---that
her work was done. There was a dull red glow at the bottom of the
destructor, not enough to char the wooden lid if she slipped it half
over against the driving wet. This arranged, she leaned on the poker and
waited, while an increasing rapture laid hold on her. She ceased to
think. She gave herself up to feel. Her long pleasure was broken by a
sound that she had waited for in agony several times in her life. She
leaned forward and listened, smiling. There could be no mistake. She
closed her eyes and drank it in. Once it ceased abruptly.
"Go on," she murmured, half aloud. "That isn't the
end."
Then the end came very distinctly in a lull between two rain-gusts.
Mary Postgate drew her breath short between her teeth and shivered from
head to foot. "That's all right," said she contentedly, and
went up to the house, where she scandalised the whole routine by taking
a luxurious hot bath before tea, and came down looking, as Miss Fowler
said when she saw her lying all relaxed on the other sofa, "quite
handsome!"
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Rudyard Kipling
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